How are you today? It is a perfect rainy day. the kitty stayed indoors all day and napped and snacked and made sure that I was thoughtful with my tasks. the Rain came in the night last night, With the Wind. it has been a true fall day.
Great news! I finished the first part of the ceiling installation! woo hoo! ten feet by fifteen in the upstairs. it looks great! and already the temperature in that room is staying more steady yea!!! Thank you to all of you for your good thoughts and for your support it is most welcome and I return it to you with great joy and peace.
this is a house of peace. I was asked today by a few GMa's today what this house is for, and if it is just Mary being a Big Honcho LOL what a great title LOL that was funny It was meant with love and perhaps a little bit of Fear eh? Who is That Woman anyWay? It is a fair question and I don't mind being Transparent ( I'm not likely to ever be any other Kind of Parent) about my intention and the Agenda here. I did try however to make it clear in the previous blogs. so remember to read your Users Manual as it IS Available! I remember I had a professor of religious studies at NDSU where I went to undergrad, he was amazing, he graduated the very Top of Chicago Seminary, could speak 8 languages, and read 12. he would have gatherings at his house and we would all go over and make food and discuss the Fabric of the World. Very cool he could have taught anywhere in the World and he chose Fargo North Dakota. what an amazing dude, he was more concerned about what the children of the farmers and the Lutheran kids were going to believe and teach their kids than he was in being a Big Shot at the Seminary. anyhow in his class he would ask so Many questions of the younglings about what they did and didn't know about Jesus and His Life and his Food, and His intention and His clothes, and His family structure that they would just be dumbfounded and then he would ask them but I thought you Love Jesus? and they would say Yes WE do! and he would say why do you know so little about someone you say you love? and why is it that your faith cannot withstand my questions? he would say to us if your faith is not strong enough to withstand a few questions then how it is going to save you from Hell? which most likely is a little tougher than a few questions. You know he didn't go and do what would have made him famous, or Special, or All Recognized, he went and did what he thought was valuable. Eh? Eh? cool Dude.
so GMa ask away!! I may be Too Much at Times, and Too Straightforward even for a Lesbian LOL and Too Silly sometimes, and TOO confusing and other times I seem to be right on Track and very quiet but I am Here, I am Learning to Be Me and to Be Me for You, for All Of us, for All Beings, i am doing my Best Everyday and will Promise you this that being Strong and Steady is not Sustainable if it is about Ego and Being True is not sustainable if it is about Ego and Fear and Being Loving is not Felt and Known to Be Genuine if it is about Ego and Fear and Selfishness.
So I may fall down and I may have to relearn and unlearn and learn learn but I will be whom and what I was Created to Be. So it, I won't be anything that you have Seen Before or Will Again
As Are You to Me
and its sort of funny It reminds me of the age old Lesbian response to people thinking that sexual orientation is chosen. " "Who the hell would choose to be treated the way society treats homosexuals" it is just so pleasant and wonderful." "Oh yea I want that life! " well think about it GMa's I am a highly educated person who is one of 120 in her field in the world. It really would have been pretty easy to take one of the jobs I was offered right away when people found out I was selling my practice, and I could have dumped all the stress of a failed business, stayed in my beautiful little house, kept all my friends, all my yummy local restaurants, my beautiful blue FJ cruiser, and been making about $250,000.00 a year and still had time off and money to travel to a few GMA gatherings spout off some teachings and been the big Pandamonium Pomposity and probly had a girlfriend LOL think about it Relatives. Really now
do you think I came up here and did this for me? Really ???
Wickett and Marshall and Jingle Belle and The Cat know I didn't. They may be secretly hoping you don't believe in us and we will get to go back to That Life. LOL
Today was also call the GMa's day and check in see how you are doing see what is happening in the bigger Rim of the Circle. So if I missed you call me tomorrow or i will eventually get to you LOL I had a dream last night that I went on a journey to all the GMa houses to see how you were. I travelled through the woods which were full of hickory furniture beautifully made, and then a big flea market, then a wonderfully large and amazingly abundant farmers market and then finally there was the town where all the people were and all the GMa's you were all there doing your things. Some of you were grouped together and some singular but still in the same building. While i was driving by all of this seeing all of the Abundance! Wow you should have seen the vegetables they were piled 5 feet high, around outside telling the Spirits that I would be very careful not to over spend and they were not even letting me slow down or park and there was no place anywhere to turn around or to go back
it was one of Those Dreams where there is no going back i realized that and relaxed because that meant that I was there to learn something and to find a Way anyhow I finally was Walking Not Driving and wondered how to get into the Market. There was a BIG line and people had back packs and water bottles, and were lining up but not going into the Market I could not understand why it was Open, there was Plenty, and there was No GAte but everyone was all lined up and Not Moving like they Expected a Gatekeeper and an Entrance fee or something Weird it was like it was too Good to Just be Free, How funny it is isn't it that life it Too Good to Be Free.
anyhow i ducked into the GMa building and it was all covered in fabric! it was amazing all the Walls, the Floors, the Ceilings were all Fabric! and each of you were in your own little fabric Stall making things and laughing and telling Stories and Wrapping up Tighter and Tighter in Fabric most of it was blue and had print on it lots of bright Colors and there was less and less Sound and it was a bit convoluted and No One could see out the Fabric was cool and It was Pretty but it kept me from seeing Outside and from knowing where the door was. Wow it was Interesting! Like a GMa Fabric maze anyhow Sorry to tell you this GMa's but I kind of Blundered Through a few walls and Accidentally tore down a Few barriers and all of the Sudden we were back Outside! and the GMa's were connected to the Market! that was good much better Air Flow
anyhow as I got outside and some of the GMa's were piling out the Hole in the Wall behind me and We were kind of Blinking in the Sunlight and Catching our Breath a guy came up and said," Hey I want to buy the BirchBark Canoe." but it wasn't for Sale. so I thought well why not ask for what it would cost to remake it? So I said," Ok how about $3,000.00?" ( that is what it costs to make a real birchbark canoe from scratch IF you help, otherwise they are $5,000.00) And the guy said, " I'll give you $100,000.00 to keep up your work and you can keep the canoe." Wow that was amazing. So the Spirits said to KEEP GOING! and to call everyone and see how you are
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| the putting up the ceiling workstation |
So it has been quite a day
one of the questions today was what is This House for? so I thought I would try and answer that question bearing in Mind that Definitions tend to Move and Change and Grow as Expectations Diminish. So I will say what I know so far
It is a house of Peace. this Place, the Quarries is one of the Most Peaceful Places in the World and this House is over that Rock
it is a house for Grandmothers, it is not a rest home but One can Rest Here it is not a Halfway House but it is a House that one might find halfway between where they have been and where they will continue to go towards
it is Not a B&B although I imagine that at times people will stay here and find food, and shelter, and love, and Peace, and chores.
it is a place to come and teach and to come and learn there is a young man coming soon who wants to begin his study of the Pipe so he is coming and will stay and help with work and learn a few things if he is willing and he will be a great teacher while he is Here
This is a house where people have been known to stop by on their journey and ask questions, Receive Tea or Water, People have come and sat in the yard to meditate then gone on their way with no Words Spoken
this is a house where men and women have given of their energy to sustain the Place the building and the Presence that is available here through you and your heart and your thoughts sent this way
This is a house that is based on Circle Practice and will be available for local as well as Regional and Gma circle Gatherings
This is a house where Already women have come and wanted to visit and Spend Time and Effort in Circle Practice and in discussing the Work that this day has brought for us to do in their lives and in mine.
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| the Sticky Wickett going to Menards |
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| Wickett is glad I was saved! |
This House also has saved me and sustained me and does. some of you do not know but the Stress of my Veterinary Work and trying to maintain my Responsibilities as an Employer and as a Veterinary Specialist in a really bad economy (most veterinarians in DFW lost 37% of their work starting in 2009 and still have not recovered) lost their referral base and my Practice was no different. My job was super stressful for many years LOL the two highest professional suicide rates in America are Dentists and Veterinarians and I am and was a Veterinary Dentist LOL anyhow that life was killing me literally
My Doctor said I was about 6 months from a liver transplant or death, my vertebrae had a big hole in it from stress and trying to hold together two lives and I was going down faster than the Titanic on steroids. So I had to Stop and do Something different it was left or right which road to take? go back to work for a big sucessful hospital and just do my job and go home? or take the path less travelled by? Do you think I was listening to my Ego or to the Pipes GMa's? You tell me. LOL
those Spirits they love you so much!
so The Spirits and This House saved me. It saved me and still is saving me
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| orienting to the Path |
the time I spend here working and listening and writing and Paying Attention the Giving Away is making a Difference it is Changing me it is Changing YOU. I don't make a three figure salary any more, but I make a difference with the blog which I have time to contemplate, to pay attention to Your thoughts and Words, to Listen to the Spirits, and to make a reasonably good Frito Pie on occasion. I think it's better than the big salary and the nice car. you let me know though what you think. I can always go back, oh wait no I can't LOL I love you GMa's
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| seatbelt fastened! |
so What is this House This Center of the East and West Gate ? This Grandmothers House
it is a house of healing that is paid for in full no loans no mortgage my personal income and sales of all I could sell was the initial investment that the Spirits used to get it off the ground. Now I use my personal income to pay the utilities, the taxes, the upkeep and for my own food and dogs etc.... any and all funds that come here to the house from outside of my personal income go towards the project that they are either earmarked for ( i.e... the wood for the ceilings) or towards the next biggest bill which is now the siding
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| And We're Off! |
so that is what I know
the intention is for this house to be available for Grandmothers both locally and everywhere else to have as a center the possibilities are endless I think i really am excited to see what the GMa's create here and what the Spirits bring
right now the house is in my name but I am seeking and will find a Way to have it put in Trust with Trust Keepers so that it is Maintained and Available should anything Happen to Me. but in order to have a Trust we have to Create Trust. In order to have a sustainable house we have to Sustain its beginning, its middle and its path. I was just the person listening and Available when the Spirits got the land and the House ready to purchase, I was just the first one to Begin the Work, but let us Hope that it is Far From Over Eh Relatives? Only you can determine if this house this Center is Sustainable, if the Spirits Gift which it is (go back and read how it came about) is valuable Now. If is is not to you then it wont be so you see
the house is Not about Mary Brown LOL it is about you
all my best
love and light
shadow and song
mb
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