how is your dreamtime? when I got hit in the head last summer it seemed that my molecules got disarranged kind of like if a sand mandala gets shaken the molecules are still perfectly individual colors but they are no longer arranged in the pattern they were prior to being struck
for someone like me this can be a problem when I first got hit it was like the world around me became permeable like everything was visible through scattered light prisms in the Dreamtime I had/have really bad nightmares which I never have before sometimes it was like different realities were all mixed up together slowly they are finding their way back into patterns that are not threatening or horribly destructive but that path includes terrifying flashbacks, confusing messages from Those Lightening Strike Beings, warnings that I can't understand, maps to my way back to me that I can't remember when I wake up, and a few other things that made me very aware that the shock to my brain and body when i got hit scattered my psychical transportation system my mandala but not to the wind thank Life not to the wind all the little colored sand molecules are still in their container its just going to take some time to put them back in order.
I imagine a great pipe organ with all the pipes out of order and the vibrations that pass through create a dysphonia wind rather than a song of solomon I don't think I've ever considered that the sound that is created by the wind in trees that are in a peaceful forest or grove is radically different than that of trees that have been traumatized by a tornado or even the sound of the trees that are left scorched and bleeding in Australia after the bush fires
my brain got whacked and it scrambled my molecules Do you remember the movie "What The Bleep Do We Know" that came out in 2004? see if you can find it and watch it one of the things that physics has illuminated (I don't think science discovers things because just like columbus discovering america and The Human Beings that lived here they existed as does all things before some banana head was made aware or illuminated to their presence that does not make them a discovery rather an awakening don't you think?) is the understanding that we consist of a collection of matter in which our consciousness resides believed to be our identity in the present idea of reality we exist in cohesive units of molecules shaped by a ? soul? character? mandala?
and each of those cohesive units each mandala which have a unique configuration (like snow flakes or chemical structures) which exists as three sets of these individually uniquely configured molecules that are in constant motion because each set rotates in and out of what we perceive as the visible manifestation of zillions of other mandalas who are "rotated in and embodied" all around is as this time and space reality as we know it or as we think we know it since its alway moving changing and each and every nano second is unique unto itself we can be attached to it we can exist consciously with in it and participate in the constant forming and reforming of It's mandala which is what I have an idea the miracle of life really is but we can never "know" it because it is unknowable.
So, attached to each of our particular unique mandala of molecules is our awareness our "Nowness" sometimes I think that the citta (consciousness) vritti (whirlpool or waves) of our each own particular mandala which in the yoga sutras are alluded to as having five different types of motion is like a complex living system which most of us are stuck in very beginning illusion and we don't really even look for the instructions let alone begin to explore our own individual mandala universe but, that's a different blog altogether sort of. anyway what I was trying to get to was that the consciousness our individual consciousness actually doesn't move about our universe it only hops from one set to the next that appears in this time and space so that we can maintain our story, our illusion of what where when and how and who we are. when we can be so much more if like Patanjali alludes to in the yoga sutras we can learn to be still and use motion rather than letting motion run through our static illusion of who and what we are.
I copied something from a yogpedia website (I tend to glean grains from different fields like a knowledge thief but that does not translate into supporting or condoning their premise or runaway thoughts and ideas just so you know but it makes really interesting bread/food for thought) :
In "The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali," yoga citta vritti nirodhah is the second sutra. It roughly translates to “yoga stops, or stills, the mind's fluctuations.”{(For example here I disagree with the above conclusion about what yogapedia says that particular sutra means and just like aiming a pistol the shorter the barrel the more drastic the aim can be off if you point it in the wrong direction i.e... you will completely miss your target or your path or your destination words like commas matter and save lives) it's off topic but what I believe that sutra (Now Consciousness Waves Inhibited) is, Yoga which teaches Now can be used to inhibit our consciousness's attachment to movement which in turn frees us from the illusion that we are stuck in our own perception of reality. Those fluctuations, or citta vritti, are limiting, habituated thought patterns – misconceptions that prevent one from seeing the truth about the world and the Self.
According to Patanjali, there are five types of vritti:
- Pramana (correct knowledge right knowledge) (FYI Krishnamurti teaches that the word or idea Know is a static word that is immediately an indication of false thought or understanding when applied to any living thing because there is very little in our "world" that is static and thus we cannot "know" anything)
- Viparyaya (misconception false knowledge)
- Vikalpa (conceptualization Imagination)
- Nidra (sleep)
- Smriti (memory)
The vritti can be painful (klishta) or non-painful (aklishta), but they always affect one's ability to find truth. Joyful thoughts can prevent the individual from reaching a true sense of self just as much as fearful thoughts can.
In the above sort of commentated on excerpt from the yogapedia website the only type of vritti that is not of this place and time what we think of as reality is Nidra or sleep this is the place I think of as Dreamtime when I visit it by simultaneously holding on to the Now of a particular set of molecules as they travel and my citta my consciousness my self awareness
my self awareness does not have to be attached to this place I believe that is one of the things that Patanjali was trying to communicate with the sutras our citta if our consciousness is not attached to the whirlpool that is moving around us then we are able to not only be still but we are able to move when our molecules blink in and out of time and space
if we (whoever we are) inhabit embody a mandala that has three exact sets of molecules who as a body travel in and out of this recognized or aware time and spaceness and due to our attachment to the illusion we "live " in our citta jumps in and out of each mandala set as it changes places with its cohort .... where do the other two sets of molecules go?
and if we (whoever we are) travelled with that set as it went wherever it was going would not we "wake up" in whatever time and place our molecules travelled to? until that set came back to now where our embodied set of molecules was sleeping Nidra.
well thats my experience anyway
so back to the island I did tell you I was thinking about islands in the middle of the night didn't I? well I was and in that Harrison Ford movie about the girl who goes to the island to get engaged to someone she doesn't love I remember Harrison Ford tells her "Lady, It's an island. If you didn't bring it with you you're not going to find it here." I always thought of that as one of the great truths, movies are full of them by the way.
so if you go to an island in the Dreamtime whatever you bring with you or not is what you have so why do we care if our mandalas are beautiful, complex, flexible, strong, aware, centered, grounded in integrity and exposure to ideas, concepts, principles, colors and their shades, different skills and the list goes on and on and on (didn't you ever really look at what those monks were trying to communicate?) imagine having all that all that is available incorporated indoor mandala and whoosh! when you were transported to another time and space situation all that library of ability (physical, mental, conceptual, spiritual, linguistic, etc...) was at your fingertips, why because A. you might need it. B. your life or someone else's might depend on it. C. it might be central to your mission i.e... your on an island and if you didn't bring it with you whoops you don't have it at your disposal
which kind of creates the inkling of an idea that what This Time and Space is for is for us to add to our library within our mandalas i.e... to activate what we already have and thus sort of like a super power we can carry with us when we travel with our molecules to somewhere/when else and carry out our missions cool huh?
I've been avoiding working out lots of noise in a gym, lots of noise when I use the water rower, lots of snow and ice outside so the bike is a bit precarious etc... the excuses go on and on while I accumulate a subconscious fear of blobness and my physical strength goes down the winter tube like a bobsled it accumulates speed exponentially as is drops
so in the Dreamtime Those Old Spirits who are always trying to communicate with me in their language (they never can seem to remember that I am really bad at languages definitely not my super power) put me in a place where I was / became the target of a serial rapist killer person /guy AND guess what I didn't take with me ?..... speed physical strength and my old apparently slipped away like a banana on ice tai chi abilities so THAT was a wake up call
so mind your mandalas relatives it matters when you figure out (ps don't try this unsupervised or at home) how to travel with your molecules
I'm off to go for a walk with my dogs and then come back in and do fifteen minutes on the water rower followed by level one tai chi qigong
love ya
mean it
mbdvm
