Love and Marriage

good morning relatives
i woke up with that old song in my head  love and marriage, love and marriage, go together like a horse and carriage.

what I was really thinking about was trust, faith, love

how those things do not exist except in their absence

for example in the case of trust

trust is what is chosen when nothing indicates that it is warranted  otherwise it is not trust it is something else
trust is built or is it?  is it not rather a dependance that is built
 when we say we learn to trust someone?
when we rely on the past to determine the future for us  then we are not really being original in that moment are we? we are not really trusting  we are not choosing freely time and again we are putting ourselves to sleep with the soft gossamer wisps of expectation, fulfillment, the easy way out that steals our breath, that takes away the freshness of our lives and when we withhold trust from others when they don't meet our expectations or comfort zones are we not forcing them to our own terms? where is the trust in that?

if I step out on something that i have already determined to MY satisfaction is what I want  or can ignore because it is doing or behaving in a way that I don't have to question or understand or dynamically evaluate and relate to is that trust ? or is it something else?

is not faith also like that only more so?  is not faith what is chosen or acted on when all that is sensoraly ( I made that word up ) available to us to examine, feel, hold onto, or depend on is not only lacking,  but when all those things are screaming at us that any leap on our part is completely unsupported by reality and everything we value will not only be lost but we will die
rather than land on faith
which is only manifested the moment that we completely accept that we cannot grasp, define, or count on it.

if there is any supporting evidence  for that leap,
then it is not really a leap of faith is it?

which brings me to love

love

not love and marriage

not love and action

or ties that bind
or anything that puts any kind of condition or clause at the end of the word or feeling or activity thus rendering it to be NOT what it is

love can be a noun or a verb i believe

so love and marriage don't go together like a horse and carriage

a horse is a horse is a horse
of course

this weekend I unhooked my love horse from its carriage and set it free
it took a leap of faith which I survived to my glee
and created a trust that is as unshakable as your presence is to me
only in your absence was I able to see
the ties that can but cannot be
and rooted finally in the earth my family tree

love ya
mean it
mb