Run Hillary! Run!

Good Morning Relatives

Well Hillary is running   and guess what  I believe her presidency will be an interesting time.  Yep  I believe she will be elected  I dreamed years ago that she was president and she was using the resources of her office to rebuild the house for the children   how cool is that

Im for cool

Im also for finishing my tattoos     I think its time to fill in the blanks so to speak and bring joy to the change  

I have been cleaning out my own house,  metaphorically and physically and the most important thing is to realize that its ok to let go of things  why is that possible  because when I stand still  when I feel me and how I feel feeling good about me then what I feel in that feeling is the clarity that comes from not needing any add ons to feel that clear and clean and peaceful   wow how cool is that?

I think Imelda Marcos must have been in charge of my closet  there are way too many shoes in here  and lets face it we don't need a revolution we just need to stop acting like and thinking as if and ignoring the fact that big money somehow values those of us who are little money for any other purpose than being the gerbil on their wheel   I was a gerbil for a long long time and I thought I was supposed to work hard and spend hard and accumulate and run run run  but all that running just ran me down (maybe thats why I kept buying shoes, maybe I thought I'd eventually be able to find or afford the pair that would end all the running)  I had to crash before I realized that running wasn't taking care of me and when all was said and done I would be dead and not very happy in the process one day so I began to try and find my own happy my own investment in me and it took a while to get out of the habit of running and to get the impetus that I had swallowed for so long out of my mind and body like the backwash of years of brainwashing

thats the most important thing that we can ask Hillary to do for us  and ask ourselves and other new politicians policy makers  teachers and if we have to have them religious guidance counselors to do for us   to help us identify and deconstruct the brainwashing that somehow became a twisted and all powerful OZ of the American ideal and took over our lives like maze rats on Emerald City crack  we have to actually find out what really is the American idea of life what is freedom and life that is not controlled by credit or hours and hours of work or rate of financial return.  We have to take out the trash without throwing out the baby  to not fill the babies head with stories and class oriented money oriented right is might oriented salvation is worth dying and killing for ideologies that will continue and have destroyed the beautiful opportunity that life here in this country can be

be brave relatives  be radical   throw out the running and I promise you that the morning will come when you will see all the shoes and not only wonder why did I buy these  but I don't need them any more and you can toss them out

be a part of disentaglement theory in action

attachment shows up right away if I pick something up  and immediately begin to tell myself a story about it and me   then its like tendrils of intertwinement which interestingly enough the spell checker wants to change to entertainment   which is the point isn't it?  the point of letting ourselves bloom without being intertwined in ownership of something to have ourselves our lives without the need to fill or define our lives with a wish or a fantasy or a story of who we are or what our lives meant when this thing is or was a part of it  and liking that story we travel away from where we are right now

right now I am typing so that I can practice using my fingers in a coordinated manner,  also so that I can get my brain back on line after it got knocked loose when I fell in 2012  and I am sitting  the fire is going  and I am having turkish coffee  I didn't burn the bacon this morning which means my brain is able to remember a multitask  and the smoke alarm is chirping so I need to go and take a moment to reset it   and my lungs feel good   each breath feels like life  like a virgin opportunity  my trunk feels steady  and my legs willing and my left and right arm feel like distant cousins  one attached to the rest of me and one sort of here painfully so  tentative  like a ghost of its previous self  but not fearful today

now is the time to get involved in self government to try and try again and make a place for the common human being to do well   its time to let go of the idea that more money is worth more of your life   to let go of the idea that more stuff makes things more valuable

there is great value in enjoying how it feels to be able to walk   to laugh   to watch the nankin cherry bushes outside the window bud out a little more each day  to see the lilacs begin to leaf out
do you think that the spring robins are fat or just still encased in their winter down ?

watch yourselves  relatives  beware of old stories that trap you somewhere than in the day that is in your hands right this moment  

beware of anything that promises that you will be or become or achieve something that relies of carrying around or holding onto a weight or an artificial light or a premise that wants you to dance around its maypole    remember when we trade our work  our effort our brilliance we are making a trade of our life for something that will end something that will wear out or down and we must make sure that we remain sustainable as our own resource  we must make sure that we understand that trading our life  our time  our effort is incredibly valuable  and if who or what we are trading for wants us to believe we are less than them or it  or that we are less if we let go of them or it then they and perhaps we if we buy into that idea are mistaken

do not trade your life, your breath your weight your appetite or your present moment for something that needs you to give more to it than it gives to you

water poured out on the ground takes a long time to come back as rain, or as food, or as breath

best
mb

How does your garden grow

Good Morning Relatives

Well   April Fools  or maybe March Madness or perhaps Spring forward

either way   it is today isn't it?

I looked through my audio books and realized that I have moved on from subscribing the the self help  through listening to what others think ideology

like stones in the stream that I crossed and left behind me they have no more place in my day than the old ah-ha moments that formed in my body brain synapses as I was learning to stand, walk and eventually run.

I am grateful to the stones that helped me when I was convinced that I needed them  but, there is no need to continue to carry them around, or to center my life as if they are an altar that I must chain myself to as if I am incapable of learning  of shedding my own cocoon

don't look back


There is a woman that is running for congress in Maryland  Her name is Kristin Beck and although like most newly formed ideologies that are a departure from the old school that is running us into the ground she is not perfect, she is I think on the right track. she is also someone who learns and is unafraid to change and grow, she has depth and she has willingness and intelligence and courage to apply herself to the things that are larger than what I can do with my day and effort and that is why I am sending her $20 a month, because she is willing to do work that I am unable to but which will benefit me when she succeeds.   I am going to give to her because I believe that small voices and small money gathered together will in fact get the attention of those who think they own all of us and at a minimum they will want to stop the leak in their system, at an middle they will want to recruit or destroy her which means they see her and our breaking free of their dominance as a credible threat, at an unimaginable fairy tale ending they will change their ways or die trying which is fine with me actually   gardens turn over and it is up to the gardener as to what type of perennials they perpetrate isn't it?

I am going to give to her work because it is the most effective use of my money towards the future of my own country that I have found available this year and I want to do something to make my own difference

I am going to give to her because I believe she is well aware that she will be derided, mislabeled, her own past used against her and still she is willing to take the hit, to stand for me, for you for herself. What that tells me is not that she is naive but that she is steadfast, that she has watched, and understands that it not the pristine that gets through the firefight for freedom, but the experienced soul that is incorruptible that makes it to the day of reckoning. that the day of reckoning isn't about retribution or profit, but about absolute change for the better, I believe she understands what it takes to take the life, the lie, out of the the system that has become so gross and dysfunctional that it is capable of being crippled by the simple idea that people outside of a district, even people outside of the country can band together and make a candidate for the american congress a winner.  Kind of cool isn't it? the idea that as human beings we can garden in the part of the plot that is not in our back yard.

she is practiced at this as you will see as you look into her and that is why I believe she is a good investment  because she has succeeded, and she has failed, and she has continued to find her truest self so that when she takes a stand she is solid,
not perfect,
not a virgin,
not a nun,
not a hero,
but a woman who is willing to come home from war and bring her awareness of the sacredness of life to its full circle by not pretending any more that our government is acting in our best interests as simple hard working valuable human beings

look her up   contribute to her cause   send $10 or $20 to her effort  I believe that she will invest it well
her website is:

http://www.beck4congress.us

spend a little of your time and then your dime on changing what needs to be changed by working on the part of the garden that is active. That is growing and willing to take a foothold in the early spring growth.  change in Maryland means change is possible anywhere  so go for it

be bold  be brave   step out of connivence or best return on the dollar or fear or reluctance and contribute


I have an active mind that is not sure what to do with itself.  thus the grubbing around looking for audio books that are worth listening to

it seems like all at once we, the human race are going to outgrow our past like the bean sprouting from the long frozen recently thawed ground


so get to work gardeners   I challenge you to make the garden grow

love ya
mean it
mb