Oh Relatives
Good Morning
We bagan early this morning. I had a dream about reconnecting with lost times and places. About reconnecting with what we Put Aside when we were Busy or when we were Focused on what was not living but was perhaps Safe.
When I was I think 24 years of age It is hard for me to remember age times I remember Doings and Places and can see me but not often recall my age anyhow it was I think when I was 23 or 24 ish I woke up one morning and was completely suicidal. I was filled with Death. it was frightening and I was not sure what to do. Realizing I needed Help! I called a dear Friend of mine and told her that something was Wrong and I could not be alone that day. I had received word from my mom the week prior that my Uncle was in the hospital he had fallen off the silo at his dairy farm and he was not doing well. I had gotten a card right away and wrote in it ( I still remember it was a get well card and on the front was a Cowboy with his Horse and his Dog taking a lunch Break, the Cowboy was giving his dog half the sandwich, on the front it said, I hear you are not feeling well, maybe it was something you ate, Inside it said, next time give the Dog the Whole sandwich). Inside that card I wrote everything that he meant to me.. all the times he stood between me and my dad ( his brother) all the times he had said to me that I could always come to his home even after being disowned for being a Lesbian, all the times he had taught me about the inventions he would make to help things go better, all the love I could see in his girls my cousins and in his joy in his wife. He was a Good Man and full of Love. I had sent the card and was trying to gather the money to go down and see him. LOL I have at times in my life Relatives been really really poor.
So the morning I woke up with Death sitting all around and inside me and i felt like the Only answer was to end my life to stop all the Pain that was inescapable when I woke up. My girlfriend thought I was being dramatic so she went off to work. I knew I needed help though and i was not safe alone, I called my friend Liz and She came over to my house to be with me. We took out the yellow pages and started calling every counselor we could find, every therapy place for anyone who could see me. Believe me in Minneapolis that is a lot of numbers!
No one could get me in. It was unbelievable! no one could get me in not only that morning but at all that day. It was Crazy! WE tried all day. to get me to see someone. We went outside and went walking, my friend stayed with me all day. she could see that I was wrong and something had a hold of me that was terrifying. Neither of us were willing to let me be alone at all that day. It was a very long day Relatives very long that evening we were driving down Chicago Ave in Mpls and passed a sign that said walk in counseling crisis center. We whipped around and parked and went in. It opened at 7 pm and they already had a line so I signed up and waited with my friend for my turn. I could feel more and more pressure building inside me and was less and less able to speak. just before 8 pm I was called and went with the counselor up to her office. she asked me what was going on as I had written on the intake that I was acutely, unrelentingly and overwhelmingly suicidal. I just stared at her and watched the clock that was up on the wall to my left. when the clock hands got to 8:05 PM I said to her my uncle is going to die and I will never see him again and my girlfriend won't give me the money to so see him and I burst into tears and all the pressure was gone.
I don't even remember the rest of the conversation with that counselor, or going home. but I very clearly remember that moment at 8:05. the next morning the phone rang at the house and my mom was on the line my Uncle had died at 8:05PM the night before. When she told me that blood started pouring out of my nose like a hose pipe. I just laid the phone down and wept for my Uncle. I think that when I looked at my girlfriend I knew two things that morning, our relationship was over and that perhaps there was more to me than met the eye.
I think that event was training for Lame Deer and Training for today, and Today is Training for What is Coming. I think that What is Coming is Really Painful and Yet will come to Pass and During it I , WE, Relatives have to Hold The Fire I think my whole Life has been Training for what is coming. What you are calling into Being.
that night my uncle came to see me in the dreamtime. Like my Dad He was also of Arapaho Blood through my GMa Nannie. he told me that he was going to Pass On to Me the Family gift. He said that Whatever I wanted I would have, that whatever I wished or wanted to make real would Become. that was our bloodline gift and he was giving it to me.
since that time Relatives I have learned as best as I can to be careful what I wish for. those Old Spirits are Really really strong. They made and can remake the world. Especially if we Ask for it. that is why it is so Important to love each other as we are, to let You know Relatives that I need you, I need your Love I need to know from you that you remember me in the day, that you think of me and care about me. I don't often remember to tell people that I need them. today I remembered to tell you I need you it is because of you that the day is not just sweeter it is in balance. I think of you all day when I am working or writing or making this Way, I probly don't call to tell you enough that I see you and I love you and I think of you and hold you close to my heart. so I am telling you now Today
One of the things that I learned once my Nannie died then came and told me about us being Arapaho is that we are Thunder Dreamers, from the ring neck lizard clan. The lizard dreams of the future then can step into it and either change it, accept it, or avoid it. I have used that Medicine in my life relatives and I Accept it into my Being. that Medicine gave me a Dream last night and was painful. I Believe it was given so that I could go through it, hold the fire, put this world and that one together in one space and then give it back to you.
In Last Nights Dream I was taken back to a house that was once lived in, it was where I had been Before, years ago, on my way there someone stopped me and wanted me to investigate a man that was not treating his wife's dogs very well. They were grey poodles, and he made them stay outside in a pen with no food or water in the Elements and they were suffering. They needed Love and Care they were suffering from the division between him and his wife, between the stone in his heart and her care for the dogs but disconnect between him and her between their ability to Trust and to Connect, to Communicate Peacefully. I saw them but did not intervene as I could see that it was not for me to change that thing, what caused what was going on there with them as a ripple effect of something Deeper. So the Spirits took me Deeper,
so I got to a house an apartment that I could tell had been mine and seemed familiar but I could not really truly remember it or remember that it was mine. it was like trying to pull a memory out of Non-Existence. Like part of my brain had Erased it. I got inside and when I did I realized that I had left My dog in that house. I was Mortified! with a rush I remembered her and I walked through the house seeing papers scattered, everything was dusty and it was cold with Lack and with loss of Connection and I could see dog shit everywhere because she could not get Outside and she was hungry and thirsty, and I was in Shock and Pain at what I was seeing Meant about Me and what my mind, my Brain had done to my dog. Relatives i was Terrified to See it. To LOOK at the mess and the disconnect and the suffering it caused. it was Horrible to think to KNOW that I Was REsponsible for this Horrible Abandonment. I had so clearly and perfectly hidden the Knowledge of this House and Her from MySelf that while I could Recognize Once I saw it There was NO Consciousness in me that had Maintained the connection and Care of Her and That Place and Where I had Been All along.
it was Horrible I cannot tell you Relatives how it Felt that Pain for what I had done to Her my Dog
but the Most Horrible thing was Realizing that I had Been So Separate from this Place that so Clearly was MINE ALSO. I kept shaking my head trying to clear the utter Foreign feeling of having an Entire Part of me that was so Obviously Me and had bee and Still Was mine be so Lost to me for So Long.
I followed the Trail and her sound until i found her and kept opening doors and opening doors and realized that Thankfully there was a Back way open to someone who had been there Someone who Had come down and see to her Needs for Me while I was completely Missing in all Realms
As I found her the Woman who had Cared for my Dog came down the stairs and as I looked up into her face with Horror and Fear and Sadness and Pain and Gratefulness she wrapped her arms around me and Held me And I Knew Her, I Remembered her! " I was so worried for you," she said, "I was afraid you were Lost that you were not ok. It is not like you to not take care of your Dog and to Leave her for So Long."
her comfort and care and utter love was so healing
I looked around and said that I had a lot of cleaning up to do. At that point she sat me down and said, "This is the Work to be Done," and she asked me to help her with work on her dog. I realized that she did not care one hooty about cleaning up, it was as if the Past did not matter because all the Matter was to be Now All Together in the Work Now. I started looking through papers to try and find the forms to figure out how to charge for procedures and it was really hard to center and to focus, it did not seem correct to go backwards. So, not knowing what to do I said to her, "let me do this for you for Free because of what you have done for my dog and me." She looked me in the eye and Said. "No, You do not Work for Free. What was given was Given and that is That. What I am asking you to do Now you must get paid for Now to restore the balance." she was really really clear about not holding on to shame, to guilt or to payback for what was done to take care while I was Lost. If there is any place Relatives that I will Learn the Most from in that Dream it is there in that time sitting in all that shit and papers with her and me and her trying to impart to me how to make it so in the way that it will Become.
I woke up from the Dream. my heart was in Pain but I refused to Let go of that Dog or Her or that Place. My training to Hold the Fire and to Endure the Lesson so that It can be Given Away held on to Me. I did not push or Scurry in my head I just kept reviewing the message in the dream. Reviewing it over and over looking at each piece. Holding it to the Light and putting it in the Fire so that I could See it. understand and Wait for the Prayer.
I waited until it was Time to get Up then I got dressed and sought out the Purpose in the Air in the Day, I watched the Kitty waiting for me to get Dressed. I walked over to the Pipes in their Bundles and Laid on them and said, forgive me forgive me for my failures, for my Fear, for my losses, and Forgotten times, Forgive me for what I threw away, or put Aside because I did not Trust and did Not Remember or Know, I am Here, I am here and I Open my heart to you I and Here Now I am so very very sorry for all that I did not See and All that I did not take good care of. My Friends thank you for loving me thank you for taking care of everything thank you for Staying with me. Even Now. All the while holding Embracing the Dream all of it All of it. Letting it come waiting for the teaching,
then I went downstairs and let the Kitty out got my tobacco, took the food for the Dogs, checked their water and then stood to look at the Sky. the Morning Star was there watching me. I took my tobacco and breathed on it. held it in my hand and let the Dream Flow through me into the Tobacco. Again I began to cry and again said to the morning to each direction to each Being in Every Place I am Sorry I am So very Sorry for My In actions and my blindness for my Lack and what it has caused. and I was met with Love Relatives
I was met with Love
so I believe that this Dream was for me for You for all of us. I believe that if we are going to Change the world and we Are. Then we will at one time or another come upon a house, an apartment, a Place where we will discover all that we have left behind all that we have Shut out all that we Laid aside because we were overwhelmed, because we were not connected, because we did not know how to be truly supportive, and truly to care for each other and each thing living thing. we Will come upon this place, it is impossible not to reconnect and not see what was not done. and its effect. The Point isn't the Pain Relatives, It is the Holding Together of the Two Worlds Holding them Together
Holding Them Awake Together AT One TIME
so I believe that this Dream was given so that we, I , You can know that Despite that Terrible Pain of Realization, that there is a Being waiting for us that will embrace us and ask us to begin again.
that we are to feel the Pain of it but Not to Dwell in it That we are to Reconnect and Feel the Lack we created so that we can See where to reinvest and How to Hold the World of the Spirits with and In and through This World clearly and cleanly and that we allow the Abundance that is created in that place to flow back and into us to sustain us
Not so that we give our lives away again out of guilt or shame. But that we Begin Finally the Life we were Created to have the Life that IS in the Center Fire it is Between the What Is What Was and What Can Be, the Life in the Center with Both, All Connections in tact that Relatives is the Life We were created to have.
We have to get up when we realize we Fell a Long Time Ago Relatives WE have To GET UP
Or We will BE LATE FOR WORK
love
mary
Monday, October 29, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
the Little tin
good Morning Relatives
there are Three Stars visible this morning. One in the East, One in the WEst and one in the South West it is a bit cloudy and cool
yesterday was a day of much hard work both in Holding the Fire and Covering the Walls in the bedroom upstairs. the Wall looks so Good! with covers on it. I was so very tired and so happy with it that I laid on the bed with the Kitty and just admired that they were complete. Funny how we don't always know how something affects us until we Change it. I did Not realize that the tin on the walls upstairs would be really nice, the walls are shorter than downstairs and as an ease of collaboration between wall covering and Outlet coverings I used wood where there was an Outlet so it made a nice Contrast at Differing Points along the Wall which was pleasing . After the Wall was covered I felt ... well at Ease, like the room was safe and warmer somehow. I was surprised a little at the Presence of this feeling. It got me to thinking about our young Prince.
As the Prince made Final Preparations to Leave his Home his Mother and Father having Wrapped him in every blessing and Hope, having put every Advantage iN place along the Way to Insure his success. His Mother took him Aside while his father was settling the Arrangements with the Driver of the Carriage. He was not surprised at this as his mother Often had taught him very different Ideas than his father. Or given him advice that seemed Out of the Ordinary but always turned out to be Timely and Useful. but she and he never Spoke of it. And his Father pretended not to notice.
taking him Aside that Fateful Morning, His mother quietly placed in his Hand a small tin. "I want you to Have this My Son, for Your journey, My Grandmother gave it to me when I left Home, Long Ago." She folded his hand over it and Seemed to be Transferring a Blessing to him as She Released it at Last. He opened his hand gazing down at it. It was an extraordinarily unremarkable small tin. It Appeared to have been slightly Crushed and was Dented on one Side. The Writing on the Tin said, " Horton's Be.. ...... Fo. Long Journe.. Best if Ta.... With ...er" It was Difficult to Tell if the writing had been deliberately scraped off, burned, or was just the Victim of a long Life of many Adventures. There was enough of the Paint to see that there were three small stars still visible and Not quite Rubbed Out. The Lid appeared to be Welded on so Tightly, that he doubted it had Ever Been Removed. The tin was small and somehow warm to the touch, Light but solid, and could easily be Lost if his Pockets were too Full, or if He was not Careful when he changed out his pants for the Laundry, or removed any bills or change for purchases along the Way.
The Prince considered these things as he held It in his hand. He had Before in his life been given Objects of Meaning, or Found them whilst he was Playing or Walking along. Some of those Objects had been Lost out of His Pocket or been Mislaid and Forgotten until he was Miles Away and it seemed IMpossible to recover that One special Thing from his lack of mindfulness. A few of them were tucked in his Breast Pocket, Safe but within Easy Reach like Talismans from his Own Secret Life. He could tell that the tin was Important as his mother had taken pains to give it to him in private. It was so unremarkable that he wondered how Old It Really Was. It was worn around the Edges as if She or Someone had handled it Over and Over for a very Long Time. It was however Pleasing to the touch and felt Familiar and he held it comfortably in One Hand. It made Very Little Sound as he shook it gently. Not so much that it made him Curious, but just enough that he was Convinced, that it was not Empty. the Prince turned it over in his hand and looked at his mother questioningly. "It is Not for Now" she said. "It's for when you Know that Everything Truly Depends on One Path or the Other." "but Mother" he frowned, " How am I to Know when that is?" " You will know my Son," she said," and you can Ask for Assistance when you need it." He considered it carefully, and then ASked her, " Have you ever Opened it?" She smiled at him and said, " My Son, That is My Story Not yours. but you must Know that the One Rule about the Tin is, That it must only be opened Once in the Life of the One who Carries it. And Only Once will it Reveal its Contents. And it's Contents will Only be Revealed if it is Opened At the Right Time."
The Prince frowned, he liked a Puzzle and a Challenge but This, this was Something Else. If Nothing Else He could keep it AS a Reminder of Her. And as he Looked Once More for the Last Time into his mother The Queens eyes, he saw in her a Clarity, a Depth that he had seen before, when she had held him so Many Many times as he Grew from the Crib to the Day of His Departure. It was the Look of His Heart Reflected in her eyes. It was her Gift that she would Watch over him, Giving him His Best Chance, Seeing perhaps the Future that he could Not Yet see for himself.
And so Placing the Little Tin in his Pocket he Hugged her, kissed her cheek, shook hands with his Father and clambered up into the carriage. He was Off, to meet his Fairy Godmother and Begin his Quest for a Better Life for All.
Enjoy your day Relatives it is Sunday a good day for the Water
love Mary
there are Three Stars visible this morning. One in the East, One in the WEst and one in the South West it is a bit cloudy and cool
yesterday was a day of much hard work both in Holding the Fire and Covering the Walls in the bedroom upstairs. the Wall looks so Good! with covers on it. I was so very tired and so happy with it that I laid on the bed with the Kitty and just admired that they were complete. Funny how we don't always know how something affects us until we Change it. I did Not realize that the tin on the walls upstairs would be really nice, the walls are shorter than downstairs and as an ease of collaboration between wall covering and Outlet coverings I used wood where there was an Outlet so it made a nice Contrast at Differing Points along the Wall which was pleasing . After the Wall was covered I felt ... well at Ease, like the room was safe and warmer somehow. I was surprised a little at the Presence of this feeling. It got me to thinking about our young Prince.
As the Prince made Final Preparations to Leave his Home his Mother and Father having Wrapped him in every blessing and Hope, having put every Advantage iN place along the Way to Insure his success. His Mother took him Aside while his father was settling the Arrangements with the Driver of the Carriage. He was not surprised at this as his mother Often had taught him very different Ideas than his father. Or given him advice that seemed Out of the Ordinary but always turned out to be Timely and Useful. but she and he never Spoke of it. And his Father pretended not to notice.
taking him Aside that Fateful Morning, His mother quietly placed in his Hand a small tin. "I want you to Have this My Son, for Your journey, My Grandmother gave it to me when I left Home, Long Ago." She folded his hand over it and Seemed to be Transferring a Blessing to him as She Released it at Last. He opened his hand gazing down at it. It was an extraordinarily unremarkable small tin. It Appeared to have been slightly Crushed and was Dented on one Side. The Writing on the Tin said, " Horton's Be.. ...... Fo. Long Journe.. Best if Ta.... With ...er" It was Difficult to Tell if the writing had been deliberately scraped off, burned, or was just the Victim of a long Life of many Adventures. There was enough of the Paint to see that there were three small stars still visible and Not quite Rubbed Out. The Lid appeared to be Welded on so Tightly, that he doubted it had Ever Been Removed. The tin was small and somehow warm to the touch, Light but solid, and could easily be Lost if his Pockets were too Full, or if He was not Careful when he changed out his pants for the Laundry, or removed any bills or change for purchases along the Way.
The Prince considered these things as he held It in his hand. He had Before in his life been given Objects of Meaning, or Found them whilst he was Playing or Walking along. Some of those Objects had been Lost out of His Pocket or been Mislaid and Forgotten until he was Miles Away and it seemed IMpossible to recover that One special Thing from his lack of mindfulness. A few of them were tucked in his Breast Pocket, Safe but within Easy Reach like Talismans from his Own Secret Life. He could tell that the tin was Important as his mother had taken pains to give it to him in private. It was so unremarkable that he wondered how Old It Really Was. It was worn around the Edges as if She or Someone had handled it Over and Over for a very Long Time. It was however Pleasing to the touch and felt Familiar and he held it comfortably in One Hand. It made Very Little Sound as he shook it gently. Not so much that it made him Curious, but just enough that he was Convinced, that it was not Empty. the Prince turned it over in his hand and looked at his mother questioningly. "It is Not for Now" she said. "It's for when you Know that Everything Truly Depends on One Path or the Other." "but Mother" he frowned, " How am I to Know when that is?" " You will know my Son," she said," and you can Ask for Assistance when you need it." He considered it carefully, and then ASked her, " Have you ever Opened it?" She smiled at him and said, " My Son, That is My Story Not yours. but you must Know that the One Rule about the Tin is, That it must only be opened Once in the Life of the One who Carries it. And Only Once will it Reveal its Contents. And it's Contents will Only be Revealed if it is Opened At the Right Time."
The Prince frowned, he liked a Puzzle and a Challenge but This, this was Something Else. If Nothing Else He could keep it AS a Reminder of Her. And as he Looked Once More for the Last Time into his mother The Queens eyes, he saw in her a Clarity, a Depth that he had seen before, when she had held him so Many Many times as he Grew from the Crib to the Day of His Departure. It was the Look of His Heart Reflected in her eyes. It was her Gift that she would Watch over him, Giving him His Best Chance, Seeing perhaps the Future that he could Not Yet see for himself.
And so Placing the Little Tin in his Pocket he Hugged her, kissed her cheek, shook hands with his Father and clambered up into the carriage. He was Off, to meet his Fairy Godmother and Begin his Quest for a Better Life for All.
Enjoy your day Relatives it is Sunday a good day for the Water
love Mary
Friday, October 26, 2012
In the Dark of the Winter Night
Good evening Relatives
its official I can drive some more. I passed my written drivers exams thats good. I was so tired yesterday it was our first snow In the morning it was so pretty the dogs were pretty happy about it. I finished the insulation in the crawlspace Yea!! that was good, the foam sprayed so excellently, I had put the tanks downstairs with heaters and wraps to acclimate them and the crawlspace two weeks ago and even though there had been warmer days yesterday just felt right. So I suited up while lunch was cooling and dove in! it was perfect no looking back no doubts an abundance of foam.
In the morning after doing the chores I had carried upstairs the boards for the remainder of the ceilings up there 63 ten foot by 1 inch by 8 inches beautiful pine. Nice after the guys came over and helped move the two tables into the kitchen I got up there and finished the ceiling in the larger bedroom. now only three more ceilings to go. it is tiring working over my head and afterwards there was no blogging! just a bath and get the dogs in read some taichi and go to sleeeeeeeep. LOL The sun comes up later and later
I hope that your week went very well. Every evening and morning prayer and during the day prayer is woven throughout the fabric of the days' intention. Open heart, abundance in and out, protection for the ones at Lame Deer, gentle remembering of who each of us is, and followthrough in the day so that we can build a beautiful night sky blanket in the stars for the next Night that Follows Day.
there has been a story building somewhere in the Night and This Night I will begin:
Once Upon a Time (which means Right Now) in a Land Far Far Away (which means Right INside us), there lived a Young Prince. His Royal Family was at the end of a very long Struggle that had gone on for too many Generations. War and discrimination and Persecution in the Form of Negating Freedom, Identity, Religious Practice, and Economic Development had Ravaged their Kingdom. Like Most Stories of this Kind, Told in the Beginning of Winter, it will begin in a dark and dangerous way, and make us Cold and then Colder until it Seems that there will Be no More Light, and then We will See what we will see in the Dark of the Winter Night.
The King and Queen had been part of an Old Alliance that was like a Great Ship of Kings and Queens, Governments and Regents that had Sailed into a Future based on a Large Cumbersome Agreement (Made After a Previous Grievous War) that Few had Not Profited from. But Large and Cumbersome Ships and Agreements Become Weighty with the Spoils of Privilege, as those things do, and the Ship had become so Difficult to Sail that the Few who had not profited and Felt that it was Their Time, Grasped Mutinous but Destined Power in Weapons and Charm of the Media, they Soon had Overthrown All the Helmsmen and Women while the Kings and Queens and Regents and Dowagers and Administrators were at the Annual Allies Harvest Ball.
Little did the Kings and Queens know that the Allies had Secretly Strengthened the Few with Outdated but still Powerful Weapons that could Change the Balance of Power in the Region and thus the World and In Doing So, The Allies would again Profit from the Mayhim and Mayher that would Follow the Breaking Up of the Big Ship. the Allies Discovered in the Greatest of Wars, That There is Great Profit to be made in the Business of War, and in the Business of Dealing Out Death, Protecting the Weak, Comforting the Torn and Distraught, in Not Taking Sides but Making their Own Side, and Encouraging with Words Whispered Here and There in the Ears of the Onlookers, and the Greedy Hearts of the Mutinous Few that the Idea and Action of Killing if Not Eliminating altogether any Human Being that in The Interim had been perhaps Leading the People towards Peace was a tragedy that would Make Good Media but Soon Be forgotten and thus was permissible to do as the Road of Accountability had Stalled Somewhere between the End of the Last First War and the Ones who Handed out Prizes for the Commercials and Movies shot During a War and it all was So Long Ago and So Far Away that It Really wasn't real was it ? Anyway.
Not So Long Ago, In another Far Away, the Pirates of the Oldest Queen had Learned Finally, after watching the Queen become Rich on the Ships that They Sank Including their Own Ships with their own Brothers and Sisters. They discovered that bodies like fodder could be felled without Recompense If the Cause was Grand. They discovered Like the Old Queen Already Knew, that it was much more Profitable to Create War amongst Others and Profit from the Flotsam and jetSome that came out of it than it was to Work as Commoners Do for the Greater Good. They were careful however to not hand out the Biggest Stick, but to make Sure that those Who Were Willing, Had Sticks that could be Wielded and actually Kill as Often as was Needed, and as Many in Any Place, to Maintain the Focus of the Public Eye ON the Monkeys in the Ring rather than the Ringmaster and his Crew selling Popcorn Drinks and Tickets to a Good Show. In Fact, the Greatest Show on Earth had become War. preventing It, planning It, staging It, recovering from It, threatening It, and waging It. The Pirates made Sure that Not too Many Generations went by without Feeling War. The world was Big! they could sit back and move the Players around the Globe, Lighting Fires and Putting them Out. No One would be the wiser.
So, Long Ago they had become the Allies of War. Now mind you these Pirates had no King or Queen or Country. They had Money and the Opportunity that was created by Strengthening the Few to UnSeat the Many, and They Lived Where They Pleased Which is to say, in Your Back yard. The Allies Particularly paid Attention to the Sons and Daughters of the displaced Kings and Queens, Whose lives had not just been filled with Thoughts of Destiny, and Power, and Success, But Responsibility. Especially, those who were an Only Child. And Most Especially Particularly Those whose Parents were willing to make Great Sacrifice to Give this Young Princess or Prince the Still held if a bit Mangled Keys to the Kingdom Along with the Last of the Support for the Quest to Restore Greatness to the Family. It was in Particular, very Important that this youngling be sent on a Quest with the Last of the Family Jewels, and the Old Sword of Destiny, to the Land of Opportunity, to find Not only His and thus Their Kingdom, But, to find His Princess.
And that Relatives is the Tempest that begins the Story of our Young Prince as He Came to the Land of Opportunity to Begin His Quest.
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Sleep well younglings, elders, Relatives, and Friends
Love will wrap you and Hold you like the Fire in the Stars that burn and burn and send Out Their Light long long after they have gone to sleep
mb
its official I can drive some more. I passed my written drivers exams thats good. I was so tired yesterday it was our first snow In the morning it was so pretty the dogs were pretty happy about it. I finished the insulation in the crawlspace Yea!! that was good, the foam sprayed so excellently, I had put the tanks downstairs with heaters and wraps to acclimate them and the crawlspace two weeks ago and even though there had been warmer days yesterday just felt right. So I suited up while lunch was cooling and dove in! it was perfect no looking back no doubts an abundance of foam.
In the morning after doing the chores I had carried upstairs the boards for the remainder of the ceilings up there 63 ten foot by 1 inch by 8 inches beautiful pine. Nice after the guys came over and helped move the two tables into the kitchen I got up there and finished the ceiling in the larger bedroom. now only three more ceilings to go. it is tiring working over my head and afterwards there was no blogging! just a bath and get the dogs in read some taichi and go to sleeeeeeeep. LOL The sun comes up later and later
I hope that your week went very well. Every evening and morning prayer and during the day prayer is woven throughout the fabric of the days' intention. Open heart, abundance in and out, protection for the ones at Lame Deer, gentle remembering of who each of us is, and followthrough in the day so that we can build a beautiful night sky blanket in the stars for the next Night that Follows Day.
there has been a story building somewhere in the Night and This Night I will begin:
Once Upon a Time (which means Right Now) in a Land Far Far Away (which means Right INside us), there lived a Young Prince. His Royal Family was at the end of a very long Struggle that had gone on for too many Generations. War and discrimination and Persecution in the Form of Negating Freedom, Identity, Religious Practice, and Economic Development had Ravaged their Kingdom. Like Most Stories of this Kind, Told in the Beginning of Winter, it will begin in a dark and dangerous way, and make us Cold and then Colder until it Seems that there will Be no More Light, and then We will See what we will see in the Dark of the Winter Night.
The King and Queen had been part of an Old Alliance that was like a Great Ship of Kings and Queens, Governments and Regents that had Sailed into a Future based on a Large Cumbersome Agreement (Made After a Previous Grievous War) that Few had Not Profited from. But Large and Cumbersome Ships and Agreements Become Weighty with the Spoils of Privilege, as those things do, and the Ship had become so Difficult to Sail that the Few who had not profited and Felt that it was Their Time, Grasped Mutinous but Destined Power in Weapons and Charm of the Media, they Soon had Overthrown All the Helmsmen and Women while the Kings and Queens and Regents and Dowagers and Administrators were at the Annual Allies Harvest Ball.
Little did the Kings and Queens know that the Allies had Secretly Strengthened the Few with Outdated but still Powerful Weapons that could Change the Balance of Power in the Region and thus the World and In Doing So, The Allies would again Profit from the Mayhim and Mayher that would Follow the Breaking Up of the Big Ship. the Allies Discovered in the Greatest of Wars, That There is Great Profit to be made in the Business of War, and in the Business of Dealing Out Death, Protecting the Weak, Comforting the Torn and Distraught, in Not Taking Sides but Making their Own Side, and Encouraging with Words Whispered Here and There in the Ears of the Onlookers, and the Greedy Hearts of the Mutinous Few that the Idea and Action of Killing if Not Eliminating altogether any Human Being that in The Interim had been perhaps Leading the People towards Peace was a tragedy that would Make Good Media but Soon Be forgotten and thus was permissible to do as the Road of Accountability had Stalled Somewhere between the End of the Last First War and the Ones who Handed out Prizes for the Commercials and Movies shot During a War and it all was So Long Ago and So Far Away that It Really wasn't real was it ? Anyway.
Not So Long Ago, In another Far Away, the Pirates of the Oldest Queen had Learned Finally, after watching the Queen become Rich on the Ships that They Sank Including their Own Ships with their own Brothers and Sisters. They discovered that bodies like fodder could be felled without Recompense If the Cause was Grand. They discovered Like the Old Queen Already Knew, that it was much more Profitable to Create War amongst Others and Profit from the Flotsam and jetSome that came out of it than it was to Work as Commoners Do for the Greater Good. They were careful however to not hand out the Biggest Stick, but to make Sure that those Who Were Willing, Had Sticks that could be Wielded and actually Kill as Often as was Needed, and as Many in Any Place, to Maintain the Focus of the Public Eye ON the Monkeys in the Ring rather than the Ringmaster and his Crew selling Popcorn Drinks and Tickets to a Good Show. In Fact, the Greatest Show on Earth had become War. preventing It, planning It, staging It, recovering from It, threatening It, and waging It. The Pirates made Sure that Not too Many Generations went by without Feeling War. The world was Big! they could sit back and move the Players around the Globe, Lighting Fires and Putting them Out. No One would be the wiser.
So, Long Ago they had become the Allies of War. Now mind you these Pirates had no King or Queen or Country. They had Money and the Opportunity that was created by Strengthening the Few to UnSeat the Many, and They Lived Where They Pleased Which is to say, in Your Back yard. The Allies Particularly paid Attention to the Sons and Daughters of the displaced Kings and Queens, Whose lives had not just been filled with Thoughts of Destiny, and Power, and Success, But Responsibility. Especially, those who were an Only Child. And Most Especially Particularly Those whose Parents were willing to make Great Sacrifice to Give this Young Princess or Prince the Still held if a bit Mangled Keys to the Kingdom Along with the Last of the Support for the Quest to Restore Greatness to the Family. It was in Particular, very Important that this youngling be sent on a Quest with the Last of the Family Jewels, and the Old Sword of Destiny, to the Land of Opportunity, to find Not only His and thus Their Kingdom, But, to find His Princess.
And that Relatives is the Tempest that begins the Story of our Young Prince as He Came to the Land of Opportunity to Begin His Quest.
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Sleep well younglings, elders, Relatives, and Friends
Love will wrap you and Hold you like the Fire in the Stars that burn and burn and send Out Their Light long long after they have gone to sleep
mb
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
the Last Hanging
Good Evening Relatives
It has been a really busy couple of days. We are have now reached 47% of the total payment needed for the labor on siding the house. The guys have not returned yet to finish so we still have time to make that goal at the same time they finish. That would be great.
another great news is that the estimate for the heat system is finally finished and it is amazing what has been provided as a resource to help keep the project to its necessary only and self installed and also excellent equipment. it s pretty interesting, the plumbers estimate for parts only no labor was $8,735.00. And after looking through his heat system salesman parts list I think it is actually incomplete. On the other hand the gentleman in MT ( Fred Seton) sent out his plan and installation manual with the equipment lists and suppliers and here is his breakdown, $700.00 for the Heater, $650.00 for the pex tubing, ~$450.00 for the plywood, $2,000.00 for the master board which is the brains and manifolds, and pumps, and etc.. ( I call it the mother board) which his company can put together and ship ready to put up, $400.00 for the consult and plan and support etc..., $140 for the thermostats. and then the rest is odds and ends like fishing line, staples, crimp rings, glue etc. with my labor that makes the system $4340.00 - $4,600.00 with a buffer fee for materials to make the subfloor over the system. Also the Plumber will have to install the heater which could be another $400.00 so not bad! that is abundance for sure.
If anyone wants to make a donation for part of this system and use a credit card then they can use it for any part of the parts. However since the siding event was slow to materialize and a couple of folks who had committed to donating "significant" amounts at the beginning of the siding project were not able for unknown reasons to followthrough with those donations, I have decided to wait until all the heating project money is secure and if people use credit cards then the suppliers will not ship until we have everything covered. That way there is no stress of coming up short at the end. I believe that this will work out and that we will make it no worries. all my dreams have been about abundance. Also the house has tons of Ladybugs in it everyday they are marching around the windows and floors and I find them everywhere its is nice they like being inside out of the cold Not that it is that much warmer in side but at least they are happy.
today I finished most of the downstairs bathroom ceiling. The kitchen ceiling looks great I also today hung my pot rack for the last time. I made it years ago when i lived in Mpls. We had a big wind storm one spring straight line winds and over 100,000 trees got pushed over in Mpls StPaul, It was a terrible and amazing thing to see all those giant trees on thier sides. the pot rack was from an oak limb from that time. I have carried it around with me for years and used it in my kitchen. Today I hung it for the last time, dug out the box of cast iron cookware and hung that as well. It is nice
I've been working on a story. I am hoping to begin it with tomorrows blog. Also tomorrow I am hoping to be able to hire some help to get two of the kitchen counters installed. One is an 3ft / 8ft / 3 inch rock maple butcher block table and the other is a 3.5 ft / 5 ft / 10 inch butcher block table that I cannot lift by myself! so it takes a few days to find guys to help everyone is busy with the harvest and getting thier own houses ready for winter.
The Turkeys are hanging around. I put out water for them. they come to the corner of the house twice a day for water. If the bowls are not full they bang on the tin with thier beaks and call out for water. It is kind of funny and very cool they are really smart Turkeys thier feathers are maturing really quickly now that it is colder.
I hope that you are all safe and snug in your beautiful homes. I am so glad to know that you are there. I love you and i appreciate you I respect you and I celebrate you this day
all my best in the stars and the night
may we make a beautiful night and a beauty way day that will wrap all Nations, all of us and espceially those at Lame Deer in the soft beauty of the stars
my love to you Relatives
sleep tight
mary
It has been a really busy couple of days. We are have now reached 47% of the total payment needed for the labor on siding the house. The guys have not returned yet to finish so we still have time to make that goal at the same time they finish. That would be great.
If anyone wants to make a donation for part of this system and use a credit card then they can use it for any part of the parts. However since the siding event was slow to materialize and a couple of folks who had committed to donating "significant" amounts at the beginning of the siding project were not able for unknown reasons to followthrough with those donations, I have decided to wait until all the heating project money is secure and if people use credit cards then the suppliers will not ship until we have everything covered. That way there is no stress of coming up short at the end. I believe that this will work out and that we will make it no worries. all my dreams have been about abundance. Also the house has tons of Ladybugs in it everyday they are marching around the windows and floors and I find them everywhere its is nice they like being inside out of the cold Not that it is that much warmer in side but at least they are happy.
today I finished most of the downstairs bathroom ceiling. The kitchen ceiling looks great I also today hung my pot rack for the last time. I made it years ago when i lived in Mpls. We had a big wind storm one spring straight line winds and over 100,000 trees got pushed over in Mpls StPaul, It was a terrible and amazing thing to see all those giant trees on thier sides. the pot rack was from an oak limb from that time. I have carried it around with me for years and used it in my kitchen. Today I hung it for the last time, dug out the box of cast iron cookware and hung that as well. It is nice
I've been working on a story. I am hoping to begin it with tomorrows blog. Also tomorrow I am hoping to be able to hire some help to get two of the kitchen counters installed. One is an 3ft / 8ft / 3 inch rock maple butcher block table and the other is a 3.5 ft / 5 ft / 10 inch butcher block table that I cannot lift by myself! so it takes a few days to find guys to help everyone is busy with the harvest and getting thier own houses ready for winter.
The Turkeys are hanging around. I put out water for them. they come to the corner of the house twice a day for water. If the bowls are not full they bang on the tin with thier beaks and call out for water. It is kind of funny and very cool they are really smart Turkeys thier feathers are maturing really quickly now that it is colder.
I hope that you are all safe and snug in your beautiful homes. I am so glad to know that you are there. I love you and i appreciate you I respect you and I celebrate you this day
all my best in the stars and the night
may we make a beautiful night and a beauty way day that will wrap all Nations, all of us and espceially those at Lame Deer in the soft beauty of the stars
my love to you Relatives
sleep tight
mary
Sunday, October 21, 2012
No Matter Watt
Good Evening Relatives
It has been a very busy day after a very busy night! lOts of Abundance already flowing Dreamtime blessings, good conversation and heart flow between friends, good clarifications of old fears laide to rest, and good work on the kitchen.
Yesterday was the kind of day the House was built for. It was an extraordinary day. I am so grateful to the Spirits for the generosity and to those who showed up. Way to go! The last time I saw the man with no fingers he said that if we save even one life or change even one thing then we have done an extraordinary Thing. I agree whole heartedly.
there has been some talk about Power and about how Power is Perceived. there has been talk about Sureness and Where that Sureness comes From I can only speak for me Relatives. No One else If you want to have some cheat sheets I would suggest the verses in Corinthians about Love, and a little book called "Light on The Path" by Mabel Collins, and even she would say that she did not write it but wrote it down according to the direction of the Spirit that gave it to her to give to us. It is a really good little book. However I will warn you that is is of course all mystical and kungfuy so that If you are Interested in Power it will Reveal Nothing about Power, but, if you are Not interested in Power it will tell you where true Power lies and how Not to hold it.
I was taught about Power in the classical sense and have seen it run into it and avoided it as much as possible. My Father had the Power to ground me, to destroy my things, to do any and everything he could think of to change or affect me to his desired end. But he had no Power Over me. He could not change Me. the Tax man thinks he has power over the value of my house. but his way of power is not mine and I do not support his thinking with my action, my intention, or my day. the Power in this house is well beyond anything that he could ever think to manage or control. there is power in something if you Believe in it. but only if you or I believe.
for example the ceremonial Pipes that I carry and care for and make Ceremony with are Very Powerful Pipes but me Mary is not powerful. I carry no power I carry Steadfastness, I carry a Sureness, and even though that is a Place of Power it does not Make me Powerful. I can Stand in a Powerful stance and Hold it but that does not take power or make me powerful. It takes Clarity and Focus. it takes Inner Peace (see Kung fu Panda 2) and there is no secret ingredient to it ( see Kung Fu Panda 1 ) either you "get it and Are It, or you don"t. No offense Relatives but it really is that simple. the practice is to Get It in All Circum-stance. get it? In any stance in the Circle. the Circle exists whether you or I believe in it or stand in it. It is Unaffected by me, but Affected by me Being Me. that is part of the idea in the Light on the Path. it is back to the gate of no gate, (which actually you can see in the movie "The Forbidden Kingdom")
so back to Power and Perception, It was a Great and Powerful Doing to Make this Place and All that it Is and All that is In It. No Doubt and If we want or Call upon that Power Doingness, or Being or Beings, say for instance, The Lightening Strike Beings, to come and change our world, (which I believe is what many have been doing for a long time) then They will Require an Outlet to disperse or dispense, or to loose that Change through. No one I don't think wants the big Ending and Beginning Again. Its been done many times and we don't seem to get ahead with it so I think the Spirits are Trying for a New Approach. so Say that They have many outlets all over the world, Many Many Many places and times where a little current here, and a little light there makes a change and thus the World turns differently just a bit. WEll it makes sense that if they are being Care-ful which I believe them to be then they don't want to Overload circuits but like any of us I think that Getting on With it is Preferable. So for some it seems we sign up somewhere somehow to be a bigger wire, or a thicker wire (lol) perhaps than others. so that is what I am compared to some (not that anyone is comparing) a bigger wire, but to others I am like a tiny hair. Certainly I am Nothing At all compared to What IS.
so to help explain the discussion of Power I am like the wire in the wall of the house. It is connected on one end to the Big Outside Current that is delivered to the wire which then travels through the wire to the outlet or device that it is meant to assist, or Energize/ be available to help assist in the House. I.E. turn on a light, keep the food fresh. I think that we can agree that the wire is nice, and convenient. Much nicer than a Lightening Strike. but it has to be put in place and used with respect. The wire itself is unaffected by the current and only affects the current if it is damaged or corroded, (which can be painful for the wire) or if it has a loose hold or connection to either the panel or the device ( which is why the commitment appears so Adamant), and is Safe if it abides by and the household abides by the safety rules. ( which we used to have elders teach us but they all got killed a few hundred years ago, so we are back to learning by trail and error and what my Dakota Medicine man says is Direct Transmission from the Spirits.) the wire can remain in service for ages simply being the connection between the Outside Power and the Inside Delivery of that Power. doesn't make any difference which house it is in the presidents the jailhouse the beggar, the richest woman in town it is still just a wire delivering the current. And what is Super Cool about the Pipes and my Wireness is that it is Mobile!! cool huh? AWESOME!!! That is why it is not me that does the work even though I have work, and it is not about me that things are done but because I am here they can be done Now.
it is very important, as any electrician can tell you, not to grab the wire when it is hot.
that is what it would be like for me to pretend that I had power it would be deadly and unforgiving
but I have to be very steadfast and very awake and very loving no Matter Watt ( did you get that ? LOL no matter Watt ... I love humor it is so good for our souls.
I remember when I was little my sister Rachel was born on May 5th 1966. My Dad took us to the hospital and we stayed out on the lawn and he told us what window to look for him in. I stood and waited for that window to change. I was seven. Eventually the window Opened up on the third floor and there She Was!! my Dad held her out the window and I lept around and around in the Grass shouting She is Here She is Here ! it was one of the Greatest Days of my Life! I also remember that when she could walk and Think I went and Woke her up on Christmas Morning and said Racho, get up Santa came in the Night. So I took her downstairs to see all the presents and the lights of the tree, and helped her open her stocking. It was GRRRRREAT! she was blown away. LOL so every year after that until she was in jr high she would get up early Christmas morning and go down stairs and open everybody's gifts and then come and wake us up and say come and see what Santa brought he brought you this and this and this! It was so Amazing her Joy her Joy changed our Lives
Her simple Joy and love saved us almost everyday. What a gift cool huh! Christmas is coming that give the gift of yourself to the world thought and Relatives I give the gift of me to you I will hold the Fire, Be Steadfast, Be Clear, Be of Strong Connection why? Not for Power LOL but for Love for Love for you and for the Spirits and for Racho
I had a Gma ask me what do I do when i see the power of the Pipes in Ceremony? I told her to just simply and sincerely say Thank you. Thank you goes along way with people and with Spirits. i can tell you Relatives that I never met a Spirit yet that was interested in being Worshiped. Or Adored. if what I was looking at or engaging with wanted adoration then it was a sure sign I was in the wrong place with the wrong outfit.
so just say thank you and Mean It.
so Thanx Relatives
Thanx
Love
mary
It has been a very busy day after a very busy night! lOts of Abundance already flowing Dreamtime blessings, good conversation and heart flow between friends, good clarifications of old fears laide to rest, and good work on the kitchen.
Yesterday was the kind of day the House was built for. It was an extraordinary day. I am so grateful to the Spirits for the generosity and to those who showed up. Way to go! The last time I saw the man with no fingers he said that if we save even one life or change even one thing then we have done an extraordinary Thing. I agree whole heartedly.
there has been some talk about Power and about how Power is Perceived. there has been talk about Sureness and Where that Sureness comes From I can only speak for me Relatives. No One else If you want to have some cheat sheets I would suggest the verses in Corinthians about Love, and a little book called "Light on The Path" by Mabel Collins, and even she would say that she did not write it but wrote it down according to the direction of the Spirit that gave it to her to give to us. It is a really good little book. However I will warn you that is is of course all mystical and kungfuy so that If you are Interested in Power it will Reveal Nothing about Power, but, if you are Not interested in Power it will tell you where true Power lies and how Not to hold it.
I was taught about Power in the classical sense and have seen it run into it and avoided it as much as possible. My Father had the Power to ground me, to destroy my things, to do any and everything he could think of to change or affect me to his desired end. But he had no Power Over me. He could not change Me. the Tax man thinks he has power over the value of my house. but his way of power is not mine and I do not support his thinking with my action, my intention, or my day. the Power in this house is well beyond anything that he could ever think to manage or control. there is power in something if you Believe in it. but only if you or I believe.
for example the ceremonial Pipes that I carry and care for and make Ceremony with are Very Powerful Pipes but me Mary is not powerful. I carry no power I carry Steadfastness, I carry a Sureness, and even though that is a Place of Power it does not Make me Powerful. I can Stand in a Powerful stance and Hold it but that does not take power or make me powerful. It takes Clarity and Focus. it takes Inner Peace (see Kung fu Panda 2) and there is no secret ingredient to it ( see Kung Fu Panda 1 ) either you "get it and Are It, or you don"t. No offense Relatives but it really is that simple. the practice is to Get It in All Circum-stance. get it? In any stance in the Circle. the Circle exists whether you or I believe in it or stand in it. It is Unaffected by me, but Affected by me Being Me. that is part of the idea in the Light on the Path. it is back to the gate of no gate, (which actually you can see in the movie "The Forbidden Kingdom")
so back to Power and Perception, It was a Great and Powerful Doing to Make this Place and All that it Is and All that is In It. No Doubt and If we want or Call upon that Power Doingness, or Being or Beings, say for instance, The Lightening Strike Beings, to come and change our world, (which I believe is what many have been doing for a long time) then They will Require an Outlet to disperse or dispense, or to loose that Change through. No one I don't think wants the big Ending and Beginning Again. Its been done many times and we don't seem to get ahead with it so I think the Spirits are Trying for a New Approach. so Say that They have many outlets all over the world, Many Many Many places and times where a little current here, and a little light there makes a change and thus the World turns differently just a bit. WEll it makes sense that if they are being Care-ful which I believe them to be then they don't want to Overload circuits but like any of us I think that Getting on With it is Preferable. So for some it seems we sign up somewhere somehow to be a bigger wire, or a thicker wire (lol) perhaps than others. so that is what I am compared to some (not that anyone is comparing) a bigger wire, but to others I am like a tiny hair. Certainly I am Nothing At all compared to What IS.
so to help explain the discussion of Power I am like the wire in the wall of the house. It is connected on one end to the Big Outside Current that is delivered to the wire which then travels through the wire to the outlet or device that it is meant to assist, or Energize/ be available to help assist in the House. I.E. turn on a light, keep the food fresh. I think that we can agree that the wire is nice, and convenient. Much nicer than a Lightening Strike. but it has to be put in place and used with respect. The wire itself is unaffected by the current and only affects the current if it is damaged or corroded, (which can be painful for the wire) or if it has a loose hold or connection to either the panel or the device ( which is why the commitment appears so Adamant), and is Safe if it abides by and the household abides by the safety rules. ( which we used to have elders teach us but they all got killed a few hundred years ago, so we are back to learning by trail and error and what my Dakota Medicine man says is Direct Transmission from the Spirits.) the wire can remain in service for ages simply being the connection between the Outside Power and the Inside Delivery of that Power. doesn't make any difference which house it is in the presidents the jailhouse the beggar, the richest woman in town it is still just a wire delivering the current. And what is Super Cool about the Pipes and my Wireness is that it is Mobile!! cool huh? AWESOME!!! That is why it is not me that does the work even though I have work, and it is not about me that things are done but because I am here they can be done Now.
it is very important, as any electrician can tell you, not to grab the wire when it is hot.
that is what it would be like for me to pretend that I had power it would be deadly and unforgiving
but I have to be very steadfast and very awake and very loving no Matter Watt ( did you get that ? LOL no matter Watt ... I love humor it is so good for our souls.
I remember when I was little my sister Rachel was born on May 5th 1966. My Dad took us to the hospital and we stayed out on the lawn and he told us what window to look for him in. I stood and waited for that window to change. I was seven. Eventually the window Opened up on the third floor and there She Was!! my Dad held her out the window and I lept around and around in the Grass shouting She is Here She is Here ! it was one of the Greatest Days of my Life! I also remember that when she could walk and Think I went and Woke her up on Christmas Morning and said Racho, get up Santa came in the Night. So I took her downstairs to see all the presents and the lights of the tree, and helped her open her stocking. It was GRRRRREAT! she was blown away. LOL so every year after that until she was in jr high she would get up early Christmas morning and go down stairs and open everybody's gifts and then come and wake us up and say come and see what Santa brought he brought you this and this and this! It was so Amazing her Joy her Joy changed our Lives
Her simple Joy and love saved us almost everyday. What a gift cool huh! Christmas is coming that give the gift of yourself to the world thought and Relatives I give the gift of me to you I will hold the Fire, Be Steadfast, Be Clear, Be of Strong Connection why? Not for Power LOL but for Love for Love for you and for the Spirits and for Racho
I had a Gma ask me what do I do when i see the power of the Pipes in Ceremony? I told her to just simply and sincerely say Thank you. Thank you goes along way with people and with Spirits. i can tell you Relatives that I never met a Spirit yet that was interested in being Worshiped. Or Adored. if what I was looking at or engaging with wanted adoration then it was a sure sign I was in the wrong place with the wrong outfit.
so just say thank you and Mean It.
so Thanx Relatives
Thanx
Love
mary
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Live Long, and Prosper
thank you Relatives for your kindness your intention and your participation in todays ceremony
I appreciate you
I honor you
I respect you
and I welcome you
It was a really good day the ones who showed up in physical person were welcome and we walked the land and visited before making the prayer and setting the intention with the pipes and the house.
the ceremony was solid
the feast was wonderful and very tasty
and the goodbyes were just long enough and packed with return invitations
I love you all
May the Gate in Your Heart open to the Abundance that Radiates Forth from this Land May you Receive the Blessing of the Blessing Way in your heart, your life, your resource, and your generosity.
May you live long, and prosper
all my best
Mary
I appreciate you
I honor you
I respect you
and I welcome you
It was a really good day the ones who showed up in physical person were welcome and we walked the land and visited before making the prayer and setting the intention with the pipes and the house.
the ceremony was solid
the feast was wonderful and very tasty
and the goodbyes were just long enough and packed with return invitations
I love you all
May the Gate in Your Heart open to the Abundance that Radiates Forth from this Land May you Receive the Blessing of the Blessing Way in your heart, your life, your resource, and your generosity.
May you live long, and prosper
all my best
Mary
Friday, October 19, 2012
Don't waste the Fall
Good Evening Relatives
It has been another rainy day and very cold today. The moisture is so welcome for the ground and the Trees I am grateful to the Lake and the other waters for sharing with us. Grateful to the Spirits for lifting and carrying the water here and other places that it is so needed.
It was a quiet day working on the kitchen ceiling and lights. cooking a green chile chicken and garlic soup. checking the mail and having a conversation with a woman a the hardware store about the incandescent bulb becoming obsolete. someone Somewhere has edged out the bulb in favor of the florescent. AS if creating something that is harmful to dispose of is less wasteful than the pennies it saves on electricity. How interesting we have become.
Yesterday the county tax assessor came by. He could not believe I was living in the house. Maybe I have gotten too used to it? Maybe he would not value the feeling daily the change in the house. How it doesn't smell bad any longer when I open the front door. How the temperature inside is more warm than out. How each day a little more is done and comes together towards that end. I won't mind however when it is actually clean and comfortable and I can offer tea at a table instead of standing in the middle of an unfinished kitchen. But at least I can offer tea today. That is Great Progress.
One other difference in that tax man and myself was he kept talking about this House and Life as if it all was just a wasted Investment. he kept saying that I would never Profit from it Financially. On and On he went about how I could Maximize the House if I did it His Way and then sell it for a Profit. AS if that Was the only Way. he really did not ever seem to register my soft replies that this house was not bought to sell and that it was doing and would do just fine for its Purpose. I noticed as he was walking around "assessing" that he has lost his depth perception. It was interesting that he would mis step and would stumble a bit and he was too rough with the Kitty and simply uninterested in Anything but His View and His Assessment. I wasn't surprised that he was never on sure footing in the house and seemed eventually really uncomfortable being inside it. I suppose it is Good that he thinks so little of the House it will keep the Taxes low. ( they are $452.00/year). I couldn't help but think that his Way is the Way of No Way the Way that is On the Way Out. His way has not lead us to a future that is a "Kinder and Gentler America". do you remember that statement? I do. and as the Fall Leaves continue to fall I am as certain of the Change in This Time and this World and the Doing of it as I am that when I fall off a ladder it is best to Slow Time Down and let things Break the Fall and to give away all the collected energetics of abrupt Change into the Air and to Make sure that I do Not let anything Inside me See the fall as Negative. That I Take the Time to Accept that Fall as part of the Work, and that I Send throughout my Body the Joy of love and Reorientation to the Beauty Way BEfore I move Before I let Fear Rewrite my Story or Change me just because i am now 8 feet below where I was a moment Ago. it is Very Important not to Create of to Take in a Story that is Damaging to yourself, myself just because Life took a little detour from where I thought I was headed. Very Important Relatives Not to see a Fall as falling down, but to see it as a wonderful way to make sure that we are Whole when we are, When I am Getting up. To make Sure that I Get UP with a new Perspective on Perception. As OOgway says, there are no Accidents
We are everyday faced with the Opportunity to choose to Accept the Abundance that Already Exists or to Negate it by thinking that we can or need to Create it again? Do you understand Relatives? it is So Very Important to Create the Mentation of No Lack. We are the only thing Standing in our Way. Abundance Exists, There is No Gate, Just sweep aside the fabric of the stories we have let the tax man tell us for so many many years and go in the Garden. so today Relatives I didn't fall off the ladder and get hurt, I fell off the ladder and Got Up and was Grateful for the life of the board that took the hit and the energy that was available all around me to enable me to Let Go of any Fear and Any Grasping at the Past. it was different I can tell you that. and I am still releasing the small attachments that snuck in so fast I couldn't see them. But I can Transform any Action and Gift into Abundance. and now my shoulder is much more Awake than it was and my balance is improved, and my focus much more gentle at the end of the day. all of these things are signs of Abundance. John Lennon said, "Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans."That Meant, Relatives, that He saw Life, that when Life showed up he accepted it and Welcomed it he didn't waste Time waiting for Something Else or Someone Else to Show up. so make Life Relatives don't waste the Fall It really is the Best time of the Year.
I pray Relatives that we can Accept with Joy our Relationship with All that surround us. Last night in the Dreamtime two dogs that belong to dear Friends of mine came and found me to give me the information that was needed to help protect the Life of one of their owners. I called this am and discussed the Dream with them and the nuance of each part so that they would be prepared for the journey, if they chose to make it, to manifest the Change in their life that was intended by the message given by the dogs. I was so glad those dogs trusted me and that I was Available in the Night and that I wasn't too AFraid in the morning to give this Dreamtime information to my friends. it's definitely different than what the usual veterinary role is but it is part of the New Way the Way of being in Circle. We/Many have called for years to heal the Hoop of Life, for Years People have said "All my Relations" in Ceremony but how many years have we listened to the dogs, the cats, the bears, the water the birds? ARe we in the Circle with them? Be in the Circle Relatives Step up and be
they are there waiting for us watching over us and always as dogs and all our Relatives do, always ready to unconditionally love us. I am grateful to those dogs for their determination and love that they would bond together and seek a Way to help their owners. Way to Go dogs.
Tomorrow we will have ceremony between noon and 1PM so please join us if you can and would to help hold the Prayer for abundance for all Nations and All our Relatives to help turn and bring into focus that Abundance that the Spirits showed in the dream is already available to all of us. Our Way is Clear Our Hearts and Minds are One together for all We will make the prayer and honor the Pipes the Land the Ancestors the Creatures of Life the Water the Air the Great Earth and all her Family All Galaxies in all Time that that Abundance that is so Present and So immediate will be Welcome by All
I just want to say Relatives that When you think of God When you think of the Divine When you think of the Spirits and All that is Possible are you only comfortable with what you can Understand? With what is Acceptable in your Realm.
I want to ask you to Open to OPen to OPEn to OPEN up and let All That Is Be so Much More than what you or I could ever understand or know or begin to comprehend. It is this magnificent and terrible resource that Attends to us that is Ever Willing to Be with us and to Provide When we let go of our need to control what is Possible.
Before he died I heard part of an interview with Kurt Vonnegut. He said,"That if God turned out to be something that he could imagine or comprehend then he was going to be disappointed." so In honor of that visionary man and his dedication to creating a better future and definitely a better than we can make up God I ask you Relatives to Let Go Tonight of your Comprehension, of your need to understand, of your Limitations. To put them gently in the Fire and to wrap yourself in the protection of this house, these hearts, the Fire here, the Pipes and the Spirits that are with them.. I ask you to Let go and let the Great Way come in the Night and in The Day forever more.
Peace
love and sweet dreams
mb
It has been another rainy day and very cold today. The moisture is so welcome for the ground and the Trees I am grateful to the Lake and the other waters for sharing with us. Grateful to the Spirits for lifting and carrying the water here and other places that it is so needed.
It was a quiet day working on the kitchen ceiling and lights. cooking a green chile chicken and garlic soup. checking the mail and having a conversation with a woman a the hardware store about the incandescent bulb becoming obsolete. someone Somewhere has edged out the bulb in favor of the florescent. AS if creating something that is harmful to dispose of is less wasteful than the pennies it saves on electricity. How interesting we have become.
Yesterday the county tax assessor came by. He could not believe I was living in the house. Maybe I have gotten too used to it? Maybe he would not value the feeling daily the change in the house. How it doesn't smell bad any longer when I open the front door. How the temperature inside is more warm than out. How each day a little more is done and comes together towards that end. I won't mind however when it is actually clean and comfortable and I can offer tea at a table instead of standing in the middle of an unfinished kitchen. But at least I can offer tea today. That is Great Progress.
One other difference in that tax man and myself was he kept talking about this House and Life as if it all was just a wasted Investment. he kept saying that I would never Profit from it Financially. On and On he went about how I could Maximize the House if I did it His Way and then sell it for a Profit. AS if that Was the only Way. he really did not ever seem to register my soft replies that this house was not bought to sell and that it was doing and would do just fine for its Purpose. I noticed as he was walking around "assessing" that he has lost his depth perception. It was interesting that he would mis step and would stumble a bit and he was too rough with the Kitty and simply uninterested in Anything but His View and His Assessment. I wasn't surprised that he was never on sure footing in the house and seemed eventually really uncomfortable being inside it. I suppose it is Good that he thinks so little of the House it will keep the Taxes low. ( they are $452.00/year). I couldn't help but think that his Way is the Way of No Way the Way that is On the Way Out. His way has not lead us to a future that is a "Kinder and Gentler America". do you remember that statement? I do. and as the Fall Leaves continue to fall I am as certain of the Change in This Time and this World and the Doing of it as I am that when I fall off a ladder it is best to Slow Time Down and let things Break the Fall and to give away all the collected energetics of abrupt Change into the Air and to Make sure that I do Not let anything Inside me See the fall as Negative. That I Take the Time to Accept that Fall as part of the Work, and that I Send throughout my Body the Joy of love and Reorientation to the Beauty Way BEfore I move Before I let Fear Rewrite my Story or Change me just because i am now 8 feet below where I was a moment Ago. it is Very Important not to Create of to Take in a Story that is Damaging to yourself, myself just because Life took a little detour from where I thought I was headed. Very Important Relatives Not to see a Fall as falling down, but to see it as a wonderful way to make sure that we are Whole when we are, When I am Getting up. To make Sure that I Get UP with a new Perspective on Perception. As OOgway says, there are no Accidents
We are everyday faced with the Opportunity to choose to Accept the Abundance that Already Exists or to Negate it by thinking that we can or need to Create it again? Do you understand Relatives? it is So Very Important to Create the Mentation of No Lack. We are the only thing Standing in our Way. Abundance Exists, There is No Gate, Just sweep aside the fabric of the stories we have let the tax man tell us for so many many years and go in the Garden. so today Relatives I didn't fall off the ladder and get hurt, I fell off the ladder and Got Up and was Grateful for the life of the board that took the hit and the energy that was available all around me to enable me to Let Go of any Fear and Any Grasping at the Past. it was different I can tell you that. and I am still releasing the small attachments that snuck in so fast I couldn't see them. But I can Transform any Action and Gift into Abundance. and now my shoulder is much more Awake than it was and my balance is improved, and my focus much more gentle at the end of the day. all of these things are signs of Abundance. John Lennon said, "Life is what happens when you are busy making other plans."That Meant, Relatives, that He saw Life, that when Life showed up he accepted it and Welcomed it he didn't waste Time waiting for Something Else or Someone Else to Show up. so make Life Relatives don't waste the Fall It really is the Best time of the Year.
I pray Relatives that we can Accept with Joy our Relationship with All that surround us. Last night in the Dreamtime two dogs that belong to dear Friends of mine came and found me to give me the information that was needed to help protect the Life of one of their owners. I called this am and discussed the Dream with them and the nuance of each part so that they would be prepared for the journey, if they chose to make it, to manifest the Change in their life that was intended by the message given by the dogs. I was so glad those dogs trusted me and that I was Available in the Night and that I wasn't too AFraid in the morning to give this Dreamtime information to my friends. it's definitely different than what the usual veterinary role is but it is part of the New Way the Way of being in Circle. We/Many have called for years to heal the Hoop of Life, for Years People have said "All my Relations" in Ceremony but how many years have we listened to the dogs, the cats, the bears, the water the birds? ARe we in the Circle with them? Be in the Circle Relatives Step up and be
they are there waiting for us watching over us and always as dogs and all our Relatives do, always ready to unconditionally love us. I am grateful to those dogs for their determination and love that they would bond together and seek a Way to help their owners. Way to Go dogs.
Tomorrow we will have ceremony between noon and 1PM so please join us if you can and would to help hold the Prayer for abundance for all Nations and All our Relatives to help turn and bring into focus that Abundance that the Spirits showed in the dream is already available to all of us. Our Way is Clear Our Hearts and Minds are One together for all We will make the prayer and honor the Pipes the Land the Ancestors the Creatures of Life the Water the Air the Great Earth and all her Family All Galaxies in all Time that that Abundance that is so Present and So immediate will be Welcome by All
I just want to say Relatives that When you think of God When you think of the Divine When you think of the Spirits and All that is Possible are you only comfortable with what you can Understand? With what is Acceptable in your Realm.
I want to ask you to Open to OPen to OPEn to OPEN up and let All That Is Be so Much More than what you or I could ever understand or know or begin to comprehend. It is this magnificent and terrible resource that Attends to us that is Ever Willing to Be with us and to Provide When we let go of our need to control what is Possible.
Before he died I heard part of an interview with Kurt Vonnegut. He said,"That if God turned out to be something that he could imagine or comprehend then he was going to be disappointed." so In honor of that visionary man and his dedication to creating a better future and definitely a better than we can make up God I ask you Relatives to Let Go Tonight of your Comprehension, of your need to understand, of your Limitations. To put them gently in the Fire and to wrap yourself in the protection of this house, these hearts, the Fire here, the Pipes and the Spirits that are with them.. I ask you to Let go and let the Great Way come in the Night and in The Day forever more.
Peace
love and sweet dreams
mb
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