Spring Into Action with Amanda Palmer and the Town of Pipestone

good morning relatives

good morning
it is spring for sure as things are changing and moving already  the seeds that were planted three four two years ago are beginning to sprout

yesterday I got a call from the realtor that originally helped me purchase the land that makes up the center of the east and west gate  

for those of you who do not want to scroll back through the original blogs here is the map of the property    the darkened shaded area is the land that is still currently owned by BNSF burlington northern santa fe railroad who offered last year to let me buy that land at 32,000.00 which I declined as the purchase price was about ten times what I paid for the land we currently own which is the  white left of shaded sort of  corner to point part to the east of what is labeled 2nd avenue and on which the house is marked 

so back to today I got a call from the realtor, the land around me to the west is owned by the old hiawatha pagent group here in town and they are giving their land to the city which owns the land east of the shaded strip and that land both really are / is park land   so the proposal from the meeting I had this am with the realtor is to make a trade 

the city is going to purchase the land from bnsf but they do not want the strip between my house and my neighbor but I do also I need to fence the property so that it can be developed into a spiritual retreat center and keep the currently unthinking dog walkers, dogs, children and people from the parks from coming onto the land I hold without permission and intent  why because of liability issues which are very real because of trash which is at times insurmountable and because of hunters who play war games in that area at night and drug traffickers who also use that area at night  

remember the goal of this land is to create a spiritual retreat center   so it needs to have boundaries 

back to the trade 

I am willing to trade the point of the north land piece for the strip of smaller land between my house and  the lower right corner property which is owned by the depot for a square foot by square foot exchange in addition to the city covering the cost of surveying the boundaries as well as them covering the cost of fencing between my property and theirs on three sides.  

so a trade   I think a good one  the realtor is mucho for it which is good as he is and his family a long time cornerstone of this community and he is also mucho for me and us which is saying something relatives 

so 

what do we need to plan for?  the cost of the title transfer and the cost of the fence on the front of the property   

now is your chance and if you have forgotten about trust and vision and why it is that we are the ones who are responsible for the world we create and we are the ones who are responsible for changing what works from a thought or an emotion into a practice and a reality and being brave enough to live that reality then I invite you to watch this TED video 

this woman is and has been living the future of our life and I am for her and for asking 

so 

I am asking you relatives for three things :

I need someone to take on the role of treasurer for this project

I need someone to become the social media director for this project 

I need someone to pay for my internet so I can stay connected 

we have a year according to the realtor (maybe less) so I need commitments for a year 

solidarity and unwavering as you would like your future to unfold 

this project will need someone to 

  which means setting up the donation web, the twitter and Facebook etc social media contact for donations updates and other project outreach links 

the treasurer must be willing to set up the bank account or funding account and maintain its transparency anonymity of donors if requested and accountability to the team 

the internet funding can be a person or a team of people it matters not to the end but it must be sustainable so that our connection is kept 

so relatives   now today the seed in the ground is stirring   for almost two years I have been asking you to become gardeners of your lives so that we may change our world and for two years this project has been being laid as groundwork for the future 

you may email me at thatwoman09@me.com, or at pipestone101@gmail.com 

I need your expertise, your heart and your money so that this project becomes a rooted tree 

best to you this day    

I wondered what the spring would bring and if staying here was worth it or if it mattered to anyone other than the lightning strike beings and myself and lynne who paid for the internet for over a year and yes I find it matters   

make a statement relatives  invest 

as a note of interest   since this blog was begun there have been 5,354 views  the audience is distributed as thus 

United States	3751
Malaysia	287
Germany	188
Russia	185
France	102
United Kingdom	67
China	48
Ukraine	34
Latvia	25
Japan	21

with the current page views highest in France 

so 

if each page view had donated or did donate $1.00 per view we would already be at our goal, if they donated $10.00 purview not only would we be able to buy the land outright all of it and clean it up and fence it we would be able to begin the classes here 

its an interesting thought isn't it 

a small drop 

makes big change 

small change makes big impacts 

so if you think you are not connected to the world  think again   you are  

if you think you can't change the world we already have 

and if you forgot what I look like or that I love you or what this land already has done

here 

thanx

best 

mary

Let them eat cake

Good Morning Relatives

Spring is finally here   the birds arrived yesterday and this morning at 4am when i was outside contemplating the air and the last of the night sky they were already singing   i wondered what they could see in that time of little light when the colors of spring are not yet visible

it has been a difficult balance to find my way through this surgery on my shoulder   I am wearing a sling and will for another three full weeks before any physical therapy is begun   right now I am amazed at how long and deep the pain from the repairs is in the bones and soft tissue that make up this so needed joint are and continue to be   deep and long the tender and painful places as they work their way out and let go  i have no idea if we broke more than we fixed this time  and time will surely tell no doubt

I have and do struggle with the pain medications  ice is useful for a bit but only so much after a very long winter   I'm not allowed to take nsaid's the over the counter antiinflammatories that most people take   the narcotics that i was prescribed are horrible  they work but the cost is so vast and too much for me to handle  so I am intermittent or have been in deciding to take them  bouts of pain relievers interspersed with periods of no drugs for as long as I can stand it so that I at least have a few minutes now hours of what I think of as sanity and being myself without chemical affectation
my biggest fear is not being painful but in not being myself or at least a self that I recognize and feel I can come home to  chemicals and drugs are like inviting other beings into my own opportunity and then being un-amazed as they take over my abilities and my experienced perception of life leaving me to sit back and unable to steer or apply brakes or even know for sure that it is really me until I do know that they are like life eaters combined bundles of impetus that require an animated shell a person willing to give up their own opportunity in exchange for pain relief, the fluidity of drink, the exuberance of a gaseous entity, the imagination of a short spurted prerecorded fantasy all waiting to push me aside or you or anyone they care not who or which, which is part of why their use is to me not something I recreate in  because its always one sided  there never is any thought or heart or remorse or ability to stop and choose compassion or even companionship in a chemical  its not a partnership but a dictator ship that I am well aware of not being the ceo in charge when they are on board

it horrifying to me what comes with the trade for the absence of pain
it is a deep dark well of death that I see I could easily not swim clear of if I dove into that drink
my sister who died in that well disconnected from her own breaks  reminds me that if I can see the edge that tries to tipp me over then I am not too far from dry land  and as winston Churchill said when your in hell keep on going

I felt like baking a cake today  I took that as a good sign not that I have the ability to bake it yet  but that the impetus showed up  a good sign that the me that is present is really means I am beginning to see the shore that appears from a tide that has turned at last

my left arm (the one just surgerized) is heavy today   my hand and forearm and upper arm and shoulder and back to my spine have razor-sharp nerve pain when particular motions that I can't quite tame myself to avoid pop out of my intention and seek to delegate my limb to functionality

today when i attempted to write in the morning on my next book my hand was so heavy that it felt like an impossibility to raise it even the small amount that it takes to make my fingers type across the keyboard   my right wrist is lightly balanced  anchored like a balsam glider resting on a table waiting to take off with the slightest breeze  its fingers effortless as they dance across keys to communicate with you   my left hand lays like a downed log from a tree that has soaked in too much water  it is so heavy that I wonder if there will be an indentation on the metal of the laptop once I finish and remove it
my fingers ache and jerk as they push and pull across the keyboard hoping to find their work as the other half of each word in the flesh

i haven't forgotten about you relatives  I've just been trying to find my way first to me and then from there to the familiar person who tries on life and its majesty then chews digests recombines or just stands there amazed at all there is to see feel unlearn and try again or witness and enjoy in this world of ours and then shares because its what I do like the cake I would like to make it feels just right when done

good luck to you this day in balancing left and right   I think I will take a nap now and enjoy the impetus of baking rather more today than the taste of that accomplishment would bring

mb